Failure

My Dear:
I love you
I hate you
I want you to go away
I want you here
I need you to leave me alone
I need to hear your voice
I feel like I've failed you
I probably have
I just hope you can forgive me.
We're killing each other slowly
We shouldn't be close
We're too adicted though.
It hurts me when you ruin your life
I try to prove my point
But all I do is hurt you
It's murdering me inside
This vicious cycle of killings
We've got going for each other.
You try to stop the bleeding
With someone you say you love
When all he does is hurt you
Which just worsens the flow of blood.
I try to tell you
I try to warn you
But I've hurt you too much all ready
Our trust in each other is waning
Until we've got none left at all.
So you'll go back to him
While I crawl back to my pen
Our wounds freshly open
Our hearts a tangled mess.
Blood and tears are something we've grown accustomed to
Living our messed up lifes
For everyday no matter what we go back into the battle
Bullets fly and people get hurt
And the person always seems to be you
While I'm at the trigger and you're at the barrel
Openly trusting in me.
You shouldn't
You really shouldn't
But you do.
And one of these days I fear the most
That the blood will cease to splatter
And all that's left of our sad lifes
Is the knowledge that we are failures.

ily

Curtis